Bila bercakap nak jadi ibubapa yang baik..gue turut terlibat dalam mencari..menggoogle…menerjah pengalaman ibu bapa, pakar kaunseling dan artikel-artikel keibubapaan , semuanya untuk menjadikan si ‘Ammar itu “orang”….
Pagi ni gue terbabab peha si kecil tu, mungkin sebab tak terbendung dah kesabaran gue melihat ‘Ammar tak henti henti merengek tanpa sebab, gue dah bagi susu, dah bagi biskut, dah tukar pempes,dah lambak menan-menan kegemarannya, bukak thomas n friends kat phdc, masih merengek yang pada mana waktu itu gue tgh sibuk sibuk nak bersiap ke office ..nak kejar subuh yg semakin menggajah…arrghh…….pap! dapat satu das kat peha dan rengekan ‘Ammar bertukar menjadi raungan lagi kuat!dan gue menempek menyuruh ‘Ammar diam dan duduk depan tc tengok thomas tu sementara gue nak mandi..solat dan siap siap ke ofis..jln jem lagi mau kejar…dia takmo diam ..gue mengugut nak kene babab lagi ke…tiba-tiba hati gue jadi sayu bila ‘Ammar stop meraung dan menyebut “nanak!” sambil geleng dan muka dia penuh dengan air mata berlinangan….erm…gue masih mengeraskan hati untuk tidak simpati dengan ‘Ammar dan meneruskan apa yang perlu di lakukan dengan secepat mungkin, gue masih dapat dengar lagi ammar kadang-kadang merengek semula..mungkin tak dapat bujukan dari gue…selesai solat dan gue kuar dari bilik utk start keta dan ‘Ammar mula cuba menarik perhatian gue, sambil menunjukkan thomas di tv..gue sekali lagi mengeraskan hati, dan berlalu tanpa memandang ‘Ammar….jauh di sudut gue mmg cair dengan cara ‘Ammar amik hati gue bila dia tau gue marah…sekali lagi Ammar cuba mencuri perhatian gue dengan mengambil remote tv dan astro dan off kedua-duanya sambil menyebut “pandai!” macam biasa gue selalu sebut kat dia bila kitorang nak kuar rumah dia akan tutup tv tanpa di suruh dan gue akan puji dia pandai…time tu gue tak boleh dah keraskan hati lagi sebab tak sampai hati…gue panggil ammar lembut dan ajak dia naik kereta…masa dia nak panjat kereta gue peluk dan cium dia terus minta maaf dan bgtau kenapa gue babab dia…sambil tu gue tengok peha dia ada tak bekas tangan gue…sadis jua tragedi di pg hari ini….dalam keta ‘Ammar cam biasa..happy dan sebut semua bas,lori dan car kalau dia nampak…gue mintak jua dia sayang (peluk dan cium) gue…dia buat mcm biasa..mungkin dia dah ok dan tak merajuk…
Ermm sehingga sekarang gue selalu runsing setiap kali gue babab dan marah ‘Ammar..adakah dia akan ingat dan simpan dalam hati..gue cuba taknak babab dan marah dia kalau dia taknak dgr cakap gue atau menotti…tp kadang-kadang tangan gue laju je penampak peha dan betis ‘Ammar….kalau tak marah pun tak boleh juga….gue taknak benda lain..gue cuma nak ‘Ammar jadi good boy je..kalau gue tak marah..diam kan je boleh ke dia gitu?Pernah gue sedapkan hati gue..ah biarkan la dia mcm tu..budak budak biasalah….kalau gi rumah org..statement ni boleh pakai ke?Buatnye dia terbiasa notti dari kecik mak bapak tak pernah marah…lain pulak jadinye…
Tapi kalau asik marah je nanti budak budak ni tak saiko ke?Gue taknak apa pun..gue cuma nak ‘Ammar jadi “orang” bila dah besar esok…sesungguhnya gue bukan la parents yg mithali atau perfect ..nak nak gue takde pengalaman jaga anak….huwaaaaaaaaaa….any nasihat from korang????
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Jason Mraz – I’m Yours -Download this mp3
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I’m trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I’ll be giving it my bestest
Nothing’s going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some
[I'm Yours lyrics found on http://capslock.keluarga2u.com
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Scooch closer dear
and i will nibble your ear
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours
Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your's!
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Jesse McCartney - Leavin' - Download this mp3
Hey baby girl, I’ve been watching you all day (all day, all day, all day)
Man, that thing you got behind you is amazing (amazing, amazing, amazing)
You make me want to take you out and let it rain (let it rain, let it rain, let it rain)
I know you got a man, but this is what you should say
Why won’t you tell him that
I’m leavin', never to come back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry, no more them gray skies
Girl we flying on that G-5, G-5
And we're leavin', never to come back again
So call your shorty and tell him you found a new man
The one that so, so fly
The one that keep you high
Have you singing all night like, like
Oooh oooh oooh (oh)
Oooh oooh
Man she gon' be singing (she gon' be singing like)
Oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh
Now if I talk it girl you know that I'ma walk it out (walk it out, walk it out, walk it out)
Man, I put my money, money where my mouth is (mouth is, mouth is, mouth is)
'Cause you're the baddest little thing that I’ve ever seen (ever seen, ever seen, ever seen)
So I'ma ask you one time if you got a man
Why don't you tell him that
I’m leavin', never to come back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry, no more them gray skies
Girl we flying on that G-5, G-5
And we're leavin', never to come back again
So call your shorty and tell him you found a new man
The one that so, so fly
The one that keep you high
Have you singing all night like, like
Oooh oooh oooh (oh)
Oooh oooh
Man she gon' be singing
Oooh oooh oooh (she gon' be singing, oh, she gon' be singing)
Oooh oooh oooh (she gon' be singing, you got me saying))
Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stress
Just tell him to the left, left, left
Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stress
'Cause we gone and we gone and we gone
No stress, no stress, no stress
Girl you deserve nothing but the best
No stress, no stress, no stress
Girl you need to tell him that
I’m leavin', never to come back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry, no more them gray skies
Girl we flying on that G-5, G-5
And we're leavin', never to come back again
So call your shorty and tell him you found a new man
The one that so, so fly
The one that keep you high
Have you singing all night like, like
Oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh
Man she gon' be singing
Oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh
She got me singing all night like, like, like, liiike
Oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh
Man she gon' be singing
Oooh oooh oooh (she gon' me singing, oh she gon' me singing)
Oooh oooh (she gon' me singing, girl you gon' me singing)
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The Click Five - Empty - Download This Mp3
Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's Empty
Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I've got a peice of paper
But it's Empty
[Empty lyrics found on
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It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying to hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty
And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's Empty
It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty
Oh, oh.
Oh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
Oh, oh.
Oh, oh.
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty
(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying to hard)
(Maybe we're torn apart)
We're Empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're Empty
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Rihanna - Disturbia - Download this mp3
What's wrong with me
Why do I feel like this
I'm going crazy now
No more guessin', the red
Can't even get it started
Nothing heard nothing said
Can't even speak about it
I'm alive, i'm ahead
Don't wanna think about it
Feels like I'm going insane
Yeaaa
It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort
[ Disturbia lyrics found on http://capslock.keluarga2u.com ]
Put on your break lights
You’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t goin’ play it nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
They’re trained to follow the alter
So if you must falter be wise
Your minds in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scarin’ you tonight
Disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia
Faded pictures on the wall
It’s like they’re talkin’ to me
Disconnected, no call
The phone don’t even ring
I gotta get up or figure this sh** out
It’s too close for comfort ohhhh
[ Disturbia lyrics found on http://capslock.keluarga2u.com ]
It’s a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
I feel like a monster ohh
Put on your break lights
You’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t goin’ play it nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
They’re trained to follow the alter
So if you must falter be wise
Your minds in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scarin’ you tonight
Disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia
Disturbiaaa…
Release me from this curse I’m in
Tryin’ to maintain but I’m struggling
If you can go
Think i’m gonna ahhhh
Put on your break lights
You’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t goin’ play it nice
Watch out you might just go under
Better think twice
They’re trained to follow the alter
So if you must falter be wise
[ Disturbia lyrics found on http://capslock.keluarga2u.com ]
Your minds in disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scarin’ you tonight
Disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia
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Sesuatu yang luar biasa dan tidak pernah dilakukan oleh kerajaan BN sebelum ini. Di Malaysia, apa yang sudah naik tidak pernah turun. Maksud saya dari segi harga barang-barang, kos perkhidmatan dan sebagainya.Bermakna, setelah pilihanraya kedua belas- impaknya sangat besar bukan sahaja kepada kerajaan BN malah kepada rakyat.Apa tidaknya. Kerajaan BN bimbang jika sesuatu yang dituntut rakyat tidak dilakukan, mereka akan kehilangan kuasa. Rakyat seharusnya bersyukur kerana kuasa rakyat atau ‘makkal sakti’ sedang bertunas sekarang.Jika tidak kerana kemenangan Pakatan Rakyat, jika tidak kerana pilihanraya kecil Permatang Pauh, jika tdak kerana suara rakyat, mana mungkin kerajaan BN berbuat demikian ?Singapura dan beberapa negara lain telah lima atau enam kali menurunkan harga minyak dipasaran negara mereka. Abdullah Ahmad Perdana Menteri Malaysia dan kabinetnya sebelum ini tetap berdolak-dalik untuk mengkaji beberapa masalah teknikal sebelum harga minyak diturunkan.
Namun kerana tertekan dengan isu-isu di Permatang Pauh, Abdullah dan kabinetnya merasakan sesuatu perlu dilakukan segera tanpa menunggu lagi tarikh 1 September.
Rakyat Malaysia berharapkan agar pada 1 September ini, harga bahan api itu akan diturunkan sekitar RM2.00 seliter.
Apa yang paling penting, penduduk kampung mengharapkan penurunan harga barang-barang keperluan harian mereka seperti beras, tepung, susu, rempah dan lain-lain lagi.
“Kami tidak ada motosikal. Apa yang kami dapat dengan penurunan harga minyak” tanya Rokiah Ramli seorang pengundi di kawasan Abdullah Ahmad.
Mereka juga berharap tidak ada kenaikkan tambang bas dan pengangkutan serta perkhidmatan awam selepas ini.
“Apa lagi alasan untuk kerajaan meluluskan kenaikan tambang pengangkutan awam?” tanya Adaikalam a/l Mutthu bekas penyokong kuat Samy Vellu.
Bagi rakyat Malaysia sebagai pengguna, tekanan demi tekanan hendaklah dilakukan supaya bukan sahaja harga barang-barang keperluan harian diturunkan malah kerajaan yang ada pada hari ini diturunkan sama.
“Kerajaan BN sudah terlalu lama. Ketua-ketua mereka sudah kaya dan gemuk dengan hasil negara. Rakyat macam kita sudah kurus nampak tulang. Dia orang makan isi. Kita makan kuah. Cukuplah” marah Chor Heong dari Alor Star.
Rakyat Malaysia sekarang ibarat, air diminum terasa duri, nasi dimakan terasa sekam.
Hari tu gue dengar berita..inflasi naik 8. baper ntah dari 7. baper ntah…korang rasa dgn penurunan harga minyak ni inflasi leh turun ke?erm….15 sen je lak tu…bukan la taknak bersyukur…tp bagi yang berpendapatan rendah masih rasa terhimpit…bagu gue..erm..ntah la..minyak memang la turun..rege ayam?rege beras?turun dak?gue tak pergi pasar lagi beli ayam…last gue beli ayam sekilo rm7.80!!!!!!!!…pastu beli la sekor…nak beli separuh tokleh..peniaga tu ckp kalau separuh timbangannye lain…rm8.00 sekilo..mak oi…pastu okla sekor pun sekor la…taknak pedal dan hati..tak elok mkn organ dalaman ni….pastu peniaga tu cakap kalau taknak hati dan pedal sekilo rm8.00 jugak…laaaaaa…apa apa je la..belasah je makcik oiiii….tensen gue beli ayam..sekor yg paling kecik la gue pilih masa tu nak jimat sangat….rm13.50..sedih betul!!!!!!!!!!!
Ari tu kata nak turun minyak pada 1 september…la ni belum 1 september dah turun..nampak sangat ada unsur unsur mengaut lagi ramai pengundi di permatang pauh tu heheheheh
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Last weekend penat gile….sabtu tu pepagi gue dah pastikan load pertama baju dah di basuh dan siap…mr pres cuti..pepagi dah blah gi main badminton..huwaaa nak ikut….tp tanya dulu…kengkawan dia ramai join tak..kalau ramai taknak la…erm lagi pun awal pagi sangat la dia gi….ammar pun lum bangun lagi….takpela..hari lain la main….futsal sepatutnye pada hari sabtu ni tak jadi..tak cukup team nak lawan…team pompuan la..huwargghh bosan tul…tp rabu ni ada rasanye..lawan dgn jabatan kerajaan mana ntah…
Mr pres balik dari badminton tu bawa balik sarung kabel…erm pe ntah nama dia..tp nak tutup kabel kabel astro dan dvd yg lalu ke tv gue tu….nampak tak cantikla kan sebab tv tu attach kat dinding..nampak pulak kabel..so mr pres beli cam sarung apa ntah kaler itam..lawa la lepas pasang tu…erm tambah satu lagi kerja mengemas kabel kabel belakang tv yg berselirat dan berabuk tu…sambil tu mrpres soh siap nak gi kenduri kawen kawan dia…erm ok la..kawen ngan anak datuk mana ntah..majlis biasa biasa je…takde la nampak protokol sgt ke…time kenduri tu la kasut nak putus…huhuhuh ini kasut murah punyer…sebab nak sesuaikan dgn seluar..kene pakai kasut tu la…(gue tak pakai baju kurung gi kenduri ni sebab tau dah habis kenduri ni mr pres ajak jenjalan e c mall)…lepas kenduri tu gi e c mall sambar satu kasut..terus pakai heheheheh….hmm selesanya….
ni la dia yg gue nak letgo tu…
lalu kat aras 2 e c mall tu..mr pres kene approach dgn org wat kad kredit hahahahah..nasib la..mls nak melayan..ammar dah mula layan mata dan terlentok di bahu gue..hmpp nampak ogawa la.. gi sat la..biarkan la mr pres dgn org bank tu…tgh tengok barangan ogawa..dari dalam tu promoter ogawa yg cam gue kenal…amoi tu la..nampak gue pulak..aaa sudah…pernah beli brg dulu..dgn amoi ni la..siap kene tepuk tangan lagi…jepun style kot…amoi ni tarik lengan gue…jom cuba kerusi urut baru..pastu gue buat isyarat tangan kat mr pres..gue dlm ni erk…yerla..leh la ammar rehat sekali…20 minit gitu urut free sebab mr pres ada vip card dia..amoi tu pun kenal gue..bestnye la badan pas kene urut tu..ammar masih baring kat dada gue…layan ombak ombak kerusi urut tu..syok ouh..cam nak sambar satu je…tp cam ada masa kan kan?pastu mr pres dah setel kot..dia pun masuk…mention kat mr pres..sat na…ada lagi 10 minit…heheh..pastu amoi tu pun suruh dia duduk kerusi sebelah heheehh…gue dah setel..tp ammar masih tido..siap mintak pinjam kerusi tu dia ejas baring flat..nak letak ammar…ammar letak je terus sambung tido…waa selesa la kot tu..mr pres layan urut lagi kat kerusi tu..gue sambung dgn magic belt…amoi tu aprroach soh beli..waa ni takyah senaman lam masa sebulan leh dpt perut cam jessica alba…heheh..rege 399 offer…erm nak beli ke taknak..mr pres tanya nak ke..segan la..taknak susahkan dia..lagipun bukan guna pun…yg perfect 8 shape tu pun gue tak guna…ni gue nak letgo dah perfect 8 shape tu…so tak jadi la beli..sian kat mr pres..byk dah beli mcm mcm…baik dia beli utk dii sendiri lak nak nak spek…spek mata dia si ‘ammar yang baik tu dah pi patahkan…grr…geram gak..tp nak wat camne….dah terjadi…pas setel urut urut sumer..blah la gi carrefour….shopping brg dapur…ammar lak sepanjang jln kat carrefour tu dia leh bawak menatang nih…apa ntah namanye…mr pres dah nak beli dah untuk ammar..gue je tak bagi…byk sgt menan…takyah beli…bukan ammar nak pon…dia pun tak minat..takat nak main lam carrefour tu je…dia ikut je kitorang gi mana mana pilih pilh barang…tp tgk tgk gak la..krg kene sambar pulak kan…sampai terfikir tak penat ke ammar ni?carrefour tu sgt besar tau..dua tingkat lagik..
balik rumah malam takda aktiviti apa..mr pres ajak layan narnia..camni la gue..tak dpt la nak tengok wayang sebab tak berani nak bawa ammar..dia leh ke behave dok dalam tu?jadi sebab taknak amik risiko tu gue sanggup la tunggu 2-3 bulan lamanya utk dia kuar dvd … best sangat narnia ni….kali ni banyak perang perang…paling paling suka perang yang last tu..bagus sangat strategi perang dia…semuanye idea king peter dan prince caspian…
ahad pula gue layan hancock…hahahahah lawak pun ada movie ni…lelaki yg ada superpower…tp main hentam kromok je…abis pecah bangunan…org lain tak bersalah pun injired…kete rosak..jln rosak…sebab dia mabuk dan tiada hala tuju….citer sgt best..gue tak pandai nak wat ulasan..korang layan kan je…..
itu je untuk today…gue pening!
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